March 10, 2002
The entire movie goes online.
That did it,
Im giving this sucker away.
All my friends have been going, why do you want
to do that? You should WAIT for someone/something to magically
appear from the woodwork and make your life wonderful. Wouldnt
you be ruining your chances of getting a distributor?
Screw it. Im done with waiting for my big break. Any
real chances that I had of getting a distributor for the
film are long gone. This happened when me and 1,950 other
people didn't get into Sundance this year. (Along with the
same amount at Slamdance.) No one has stepped forward to
help me out till now. The best deal I could hope for is
a small distributor offer me NOTHING for the privalege of
having THEM manufacture and release it on a very low level.
(Which at that point, they would have something to say about
having it shown on the Internet for free.) At this point
in my career, I'd rather have an audience than some chump
The next argument has been, shouldnt you
be charging for the download?
I want people to know about the indie film. I can't generate good
word of mouth if no one has SEEN it, and vice-versa...no
one will bother to pay for the download if they haven't
heard anything about it. It'll do me no good if the indie film
sits on a shelf for the next decade and no one sees it.
(Note: a few million dollars in marketing usually solves
this problem, I seem to be short a few bucks.)
If I never make a penny from this indie film, I could live with
the fact that thousands of people had seen it and that would
make it all worth it. (Note: Its HAS been worth it
up till now, Ive met the coolest people and made a
bunch of friends. But let me rant.) Ive got nothing
to lose, so fuck it. Here we go.
March 12, 2002 I get my iTool whacked.
HAD the movie online in a streamable form for a few days.
I had BOUGHT some extra webspace at Mac.com under the iTool
account of altsexmovie. Andy
Ihnatko suggested them to me, 200 megs for 200 smackers.
I had uploaded a 150 meg version of the movie and put up
a link. Fuckers canceled the account and never bothered
to notify me. When I finally tracked down the iTools admins,
this is what they sent me:
account had over 12 GB of data downloaded from your account
in 6 hours. This is considered excessive bandwidth for a
had only mentioned the movie at xlr8yourmac.com.
and I get shut down. They reactivated the account and basicially
said, dont do it again. I need more bandwidth.
14, 2002 - Movie is back online!
had seen the movie on xlr8yourmac.com and had posted it
on his server at his school. He said he had no problem keeping
the file online until May 1st, which is when he leaves the
school hes located at. Apparently they have a 10 megabit
server so he can offer a ton of bandwidth. (For free no
less!) Ive already started getting some very postive
feedback from people whove downloaded it. Woo hoo!
Off we go.
16, 2002 This ndie film gets posted on alt.binaries.movies.divx
old high school buddy of mine, Gary
St. Lawrence, had posted this indie film on alt.binaries.movies.divx
and few others. He totally enjoyed this indie film and has been
actively promoting it where ever he can. The only stipulation
is that I have to work him in somehow in my next one. Deal.
2, 2002 - No it's not.
what? We just kicked David Giessel's ass. :-) The movie won't
be on his FTP server until next Sunday (April 7th - He needs
his server to "cool down" for the rest of this week,
then it'll be back online.) Just this past month he's had
80-90 GB downloaded with about 750-800 successfull downloads
(trailer and such) and about 1200 logins. Ouch. Still need
to find more people who can mirror the file.
This website has done over 300 unique URLs in a single day
a few times recenlty. (Hasnt done that ever.) Lets
see how far I can push this sucker.
5, 2002 - We got sumthin' up.
graciously put the 150 meg file on his personal webserver
runnin' off his DSL connection. He found the movie through
a usenet posting and loved it. David Giessels FTP site went
back online on schedule, so we seem to be cool for now.
I have an offer for an entire dedicated webserver someplace
that will have 100 GIGs of bandwidth a month. It will also
cost me $140 a month. I might have to bite the bullet on
this one if I dont want to sink into obscurity.
10, 2002 An indie filmmaker analogy
received my CD-R of this indie film about a week ago and really
enjoyed it. (He couldnt download it, he had a slow
connection.) He had shot an entire documentary about independent
artists and the life they lead. I guess hes writing
a book called The 99 cent film school and wanted
to make a reference to me:
you do what you do well, the universe will eventually part
her legs on your behalf. This is true, but it is sort misinterpreted
into a lie by people who usually write these books. I know
a filmmaker who half-jokingly said he wanted to sue Robert
Rodriguez for making it sound too easy. This cat Eric Bickernicks
spent his lifesavings and ruined his credit trying to make
his own 'El Mariachi"(he followed the exact same formulae.
His movie, alt.sex (altsexmovie.com) was actually better
than 'El Mariachi.
I replied with
Hold on, what I MEANT to say was this:
I would love to beat Robert Rodrigues with his own book
if I ever met him. He DOES make it look easy. Grab a few
friends, make an indie film for a few bucks, get an ICM agent and
then watch the bidding war start over you.
You hear all the folklore around Clerks and how Kevin Smith
shot it for 22 grand, this fella Bob Hawk plucks his indie film
out of obscurity and now he's whining on his latest DVD
that he's truly independent and how he had to beg for an
additional $250,000 to finish his indie film with Matt Daemon
and Ben Affleck.
Guess what? I literarly tried to follow these guys in their
footsteps. I admired them, but ICM gave me the finger (Along
with every other agency in L.A.) and Bob
Hawk watched my indie film and then punched me in the face
after I gave him my last $500.
But it's not their fault. It's like reading a book about
Thomas Edison on how he took a few wires, stuck it in a
glass bulb, ran some electricity through it and made millions.
That's all it takes to produce light? Whoops. Nobody cares
who made the second light bulb.
At least I knew enough NOT to spend my my life's savings
so I could fight on another day.
this for an anology: 100 indie filmmakers decide to
make an indie film about jumping out of airplanes without parachutes
and landing in a haystack.
They all get into a plane and reach altitude.
The green light goes on, they start their cameras, pile
out and film all the way down.
A quarter mile from the hay stack you start to see their
bodies hitting the ground. Thwack, thwack, thwack. 49 bodies
hit the ground before the haystack. One lands in the middle,
49 others splat on the other side. Crushed bodies, egos,
cameras and credits cards are strewn everywhere.
The media comes rushing onto the field. What do they report?
That 99 filmmakers DIED trying to make an indie film about jumping
out of an airplane without a parachute and landing in a
run up to the haystack. Out pops that one filmmaker and
goes, (Jeff Spicoli voice) "DUDE! That was awesome!"
He gets sent to Sundance.
The rest of use have to pull ourselves up and crawl out
of that field.
what I meant to say. :-)
20, 2002 Albany Public library, ten dollars and a porno
a week ago, I got this message from Amy Scheele. She works
at the Albany Public Library in New York state. Im
pretty sure she was turned onto the movie by the duo at
She had watched it online and was very enthuesiastic about
the film and wanted (4) copies to have on loan at her library!
Apparently they have a thriving indie section there and
toss around tapes to anyone who will be into
A library. Sounds cool to me. Therese
(Shelly the mechanic) works at a library and she says her
video/DVD section is more active than Blockbuster Video.
Amy said that shell forward any comments that she
receives. Cool. I whipped up a vhs box label and pounded
out a few copies for her. Off that goes and lets see
I recently crossed paths with an old friend of mine from
my local access cable days, Larry
Knobs Nobile. We had done a bunch of weird
TV shows along with John
Horrigan back in the early 90s. I had initially
wanted Larry to play the part of Mr. Disgusting, the role
that Sparky ended up exceling
in. Larry now runs a dive of a porno store in Hadley, Massachusetts.
He liked our indie film and figured that HIS patrons would also
be interested in seeing this film. I whip up another tape
Im excited. I wanted to start at the bottom of the
ladder and I did. My foot is firmly planted on the rung
labeled cheap porno store and I am now hoisting
myself up to greater success. You watch, if I ever drive
through Albany, New York Im gonna be considered a
Even more developments: I get this e-mail from a Copil Yanez.
He basically finds the movie online, reads this entire journal,
is touched by the effort I put into making this film and
sends me $10 to keep going. I was fucking blown away by
his generosity. Can you believe it? Not only am I amazed
that somebody has bothered to read this blog,
but gives me an unsolicited ten dollars to boot. Now I got
a problem, I think Phil gets 10 cents, Juliet will get 5
cents and Johnny will get a buck. Ill have to do the
ALERT: You just witnessed me
use the term blog in a sentence for the very
first time. Lemme give you the definition I recently found
A frequent, chronological publication of personal
thoughts and Web links. Ok there. We take you
back to the regularily scheduled blog now in progress.
I noticed that
I was starting to get some hits from a site in Holland called
Sikkema.net. They have a
small review of the movie (in Dutch) with a link back to
this site. Then I get this e-mail from a Blackjack21. Still
waiting to hear back on WHO is doing all this buzzing, but
if I ever drive through Holland and get out of the car,
I guess Ill be a big shot there TOO.